In Defense of My Sanity
Yes, I've Felt a Bit Irritated and Disconnected Since 2020 and Here's Why...
Prior to 2013, I was mostly a left-brained type thinker that had short-lived periods of interest in the non-physical. From my childhood through adulthood, I did have interest in things like ESP or the paranormal - even god at times - but for the most part I was a pretty hard core materialist, convinced by my education (and other forms of indoctrination) that the world worked like a big pocket watch: mechanically, predictably, according to the strict laws of physics that I was led to believe - mostly through a university engineering education - were well understood. I even wrote multiple science fiction books with this materialist foundation as the underlying scaffolding that supported the plot. So there I am prior to 2013, basically in and out of materialistic thought patterns that occasionally found “mystical” things like ghosts, Ouija Boards and UFOs intriguing but without enough literature or other support around it to really take it seriously. Then 2013 came.
In mid 2013, through a serious of events, I began my decade long self-education or Initiation into the subject of Consciousness viewed through the lens of various areas of study: physics, mysticism/spirituality, biology, relativistic/quantum theory synergy, computer science/artificial intelligence, philosophy, music, religion, creativity and various humanities like anthropology, archeology and history) and through intense research came to the realization that there is much, much more to Reality than we are taught. I discovered in late 2019 that those on the bleeding edge of each of these disciplines appeared to be converging to a Grand Realization of the Truth of Consciousness/God/Reality. I thought I was breaking new ground, that the vast majority of the world was not aware of this Truth and that there could be a new awakening of civilization or lifting of a Great Filter if more people were aware of what I was discovering. As I dove deeper, I realized that was a bit naive.
As the events of the global Covid scam began in March 2020, my focus shifted to current events. Things didn’t feel right. I didn’t believe what I was being told and aimed my research at trying to ease my discomfort. As I did, the lies being told by the US and other governments and world organizations like the UN, WHO and WEF became easily distinguishable from Truth. I dove further into the people and groups involved, their organizations and their motives and the flow of money. And through this I saw the mechanisms by which the general population was being controlled. To my astonishment, as 2020 bled into 2021 and vaccines were rolled out and fascist controls were imparted in order to get people AND children to take these poisons, I was able to see that the same mechanism of secrecy and lies that fooled people on the topic of pharmaceuticals and bodily autonomy were the same controls used to hide the Truth of Consciousness and Reality. What I was to discover was that the general population was unaware of these Truths BECAUSE trillions of dollars and careers of effort have been spent hiding this from us. Decades and decades have gone by as the more “privileged” of society have actively explored and lied about these Truths with the explicit intention of deception and self enrichment. I saw that the gatekeepers of civilization (intelligence/military groups, politicians, religion, business “elite”, media, entertainment, the super rich, and other so-called “leaders”) have very bad intentions and view humanity as property whose sole purpose is ignorant service to them. I realized in mid 2021 that there is no escaping this system. At least not until more understand this knowledge-capping bubble we are all kept within…or until it all falls apart and collapses with infinitely destructive outcomes. From 2020-2021 we all had a front row seat to the practices of this Cabal in action. My viewpoint was unique in that I had just been initiated from 2013 through 2020 into the very ideas they were trying to hide.
During 2022-2023 I spent time continuing to learn, tracking who did and said what, noting who were the Good Guys and who were the Bad Guys - because that’s what it all boils down to. I was waiting. Hoping more people would see the same Truth as it was slowly exposed through global events. I learned that I had no ability to verbally explain what I saw to anyone without sounding totally insane so all I can do it wait. So after 10 years of this torture, this trauma of feeling very disconnected from reality, I still see the suppression of Truth everywhere. I do see people waking up and that speed of awakening may be accelerating - I’m not sure. But the truth of this reality is so science fiction, that as people do wake up, they will likely dismiss a lot of things because they just seem so outlandish.
There are certain truth-tellers out there to varying degrees who I know are truth tellers because what they say is entirely consistent with my learnings starting in 2013. But they can be easily ignored, suppressed, mocked or simply dismissed by the counter force of the status quo. Meaning it’s much easier for the average person to just continue their daily lives and separate that from this new information. I don’t think it will be so easy as time goes forward to continue dismissing Truth. And this may cause a lot of people to simply lose their minds. The question is how much this insanity brought by the apprehension of Truth will be masked by other global disasters that will be propagated by our “leaders” who are actively trying to kill us through war, economic hardship, artificial health issues, etc.). We are accelerating towards the shitshow and by the time people make necessary realizations, it will be upon us. I believe this is by design.
One problem with the Truth tellers or real whistleblowers that are out there (aside from the suppression) is that they are limited in what they can say because once a certain line is crossed, they are simply removed. Killed. This has happened dozens and dozens of times. The line appears to be talking about the systematic abuse of children in any detail, even the abuse of adults, ancient civilizations, underground civilizations - anything that draws attention to the true owners of humanity that can’t be easily discredited. The risk/reward calculation for the Cabal or Enterprise shows it is much better and much easier to disappear someone rather than continue trying to cover up something that can quickly grow legs on Tiktok or Twitter. If there was a better organized and more respected group that could honestly and openly discuss these forbidden topics in a very public forum, that would be very helpful. Tremendously helpful. There needs to be very open dialogue on Reality and what’s happening and this process of dismantling civilization to bring about the Ahrimanically-inspired Technological Oligarchy that doesn’t involve YOU. But that won’t be allowed.
I understand people don’t get it. Any many don’t even care - even though they should. This is only my story. My 10 years of torture. Actually the first 6.5 years were a delightful period of exciting discovery. Only these last 3.5 years have been traumatic torture. Without the first 6.5 years of initiation, the last 3.5 would have been confusing, nonsensical and random - like it most likely seems to the general public or average person trying to just survive and support a family. But with the initiation/education I was lucky enough to receive, I can see both high level and granular execution of a grand plan, brilliant and deep and just as hidden as whatever is going on underneath the frozen tundra of Antarctica. But with this gift comes the ability to see things that are possibly years away from happening and I’ve been kept totally in the dark as to the timing